Three days to go until the meeting that might change my life drastically: In three days we will check together with experts on the matter, whether or not it is likely and possible for me to return to Boston this winter. I am no longer scared or nervous about the outcome, I feel totally comfortable both with my plan A and B, and can look at my future with the certainty that I am doing the right thing. I must however wonder, which path will I be taking in two months, and what my life will be like in 6 months from now: Will I be leaving in Boston, working in an industry I know and doing a job I know? Or will I be living in a country I might have never been to before, in a different industry or a totally different job? What about living in that far away country, but working as a volunteer to help children in need? All options are attractive, all options offer me personal and professional growth, and the opportunity for a new start in life, leaving behind at least some of those negative habits I have picked over the past years, maybe bringing me into a healthier lifestyle.
3 days to go until I know how much I will leave behind. Will it be leaving behind the country I have lived in for over 6 years, and returning to a place where I have a stable social network? Will it be leaving the paycheck and routine and finding out whether a different culture allows me to grow a new social network, starting from scratch? Will it be packing my life into boxes, grabbing my backpack and heading off to see more of the world?
It might seem a lot is on the game, and depending on the point of view it most likely is. The one thing that is on the game for sure is my future. What if I chose to go to Asia and meet someone there? Would I have the strength to stay there and settle down on the opposite side of the world from my family? Or would I frek out and find myself into a life crisis, trying to balance heart and head? What if I go to Boston and feel overwhelmed by work in the company I know, and want to leave but find myself not having the opportunity anymore?
None of these life questions will be addressed this week, and maybe they never will need to be addressed, all of these questions will only come up in one of the scenarios that life might bring for me, and there are 3 days left to go until at least an initial direction for my life is set.
3 days to go until I know how much I will leave behind. Will it be leaving behind the country I have lived in for over 6 years, and returning to a place where I have a stable social network? Will it be leaving the paycheck and routine and finding out whether a different culture allows me to grow a new social network, starting from scratch? Will it be packing my life into boxes, grabbing my backpack and heading off to see more of the world?
It might seem a lot is on the game, and depending on the point of view it most likely is. The one thing that is on the game for sure is my future. What if I chose to go to Asia and meet someone there? Would I have the strength to stay there and settle down on the opposite side of the world from my family? Or would I frek out and find myself into a life crisis, trying to balance heart and head? What if I go to Boston and feel overwhelmed by work in the company I know, and want to leave but find myself not having the opportunity anymore?
None of these life questions will be addressed this week, and maybe they never will need to be addressed, all of these questions will only come up in one of the scenarios that life might bring for me, and there are 3 days left to go until at least an initial direction for my life is set.
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